Far, far, far...or really close?

Well, after all that jumble in the last post, I did talk to the friend that was far away. There's hope. I pray each day that my friends will know that I'm here for them no matter what. Sometimes, I wish I could just sit them all down and explain what each one means to me! Someday, I hope they will understand what they mean to me...in all the weirdest and most normal ways!

Not really sure...

I really don't know if my friends are still my friends or if they think I'm crazy. I hope that I find myself in less of a precarious position in the near future. The people you think will be there for you, seem to disappear in the blink of an eye without giving you time to understand why its happening.

They are forging ahead into their music careers and I'm sitting here hoping that someday I will be able to have my friends back but each day, I am less hopeful. There is not anything that seems to be in my favor...all the time I've spent investing in them and I feel its no use anymore.

One is far, far, far away in what feels like another universe. No communication can mean one of two things, things are well or things really stink. I pray its not the later but I have a bad feeling it is.

The LORD is the only one I have left to keep me from losing it completely. He keeps me in His hands so as I struggle feeling all alone, I'm really being carried through to the other side.

Beginning

I am writing in this blog for the first time although I have already started another one...not really sure why but I guess it's ok as long as I keep writing! :)

What's Happening?!?!?

Well, right now, I'm trying to get the motivation to do a whole lot of homework due this week! Not something I enjoy but it's almost over...just a few more months!

I'm getting a whole bunch of babysitting jobs that are working well for me so God's providing the finances when things are rough.

My family is going skiing without me!!!!! :( Snow is actually falling in TN and people are losing their minds!

Having a lot of thoughts racing through my mind all the time...see my other blog for those!